me and the sky are both crying today

dear diary, today was rain and stormed all day, you might felt it, for sure it doesn't have any related with my felling. I was so sad last night because I got really bad news for my future life. My tears sudenly blup blup ppfftt wkwk. That's why Im not ready yet preparing myself for date and marry someone. Because this fucking life was so full of dramatic, it so complicated how I feel right now. Friend of mine and she's is a sister of the girl that I like, we are very enjoy life and try to think about next step of the relationship. For few everything is going normal. I'm happy for all the thing what spent already, we full of joy and spreading the happiness each other. But! her sister doesn't like me, even she's one of my close friend, I really don't know why for a reason how she hate me for my relationship w/her sister. I bet she's judge me already by my past, probably our circle also in the past. I think that's funny when people judge another people for their past and it was long long time ago, I got lil sad of her and her husband. ahh I don't want to keep writing my feeling caused it lil bit privasi and I'll not forget what was happen lastnight. And now i'm in between dilemma. There's only two choice for me. Keep it fight or back off. I know it will take a lot of space in my head, ruin my mood, etc. I'm so sorry diary. I don't want to keep writing or saying how's my feeling because this moment so sensitive and so privacy. I'll meet the girl that I like today and will talk all about this fucking drama. I put sad of two people today because don't wanna ask me for anything and judged me by their mind. So poor to be open minded people and judge me by my past. How sad? I'll sleep all day and don't wanna see anyone or talk about any business project. Need to fix my feeling first. sleep tight Aan, you are strong enough! I trust you.